so easter has come and gone..

this weekend has been one of reflection and lazyness.. i wish it had a little more balance though.. i felt like i wasted away many hours.. especially on saturday watching almost 6 hours of tv.. ahhh!

anyways friday night.. (good friday) my church went over to centre island to celebrate the death of Jesus.. we had some quiet self reflection/gethsemane meditations.. and then we gathered together to read the crucifixtion/passion story.. and partook communion together.. it was beautiful.. a great view of the city.. to look on the city - to see the city that we live in - to see the city that we as a church are living in but not of... trying to be lights in the dark..
i went to walmer road baptist church yesterday morning.. so beautiful.. tears were pouring down while singing "we bow down, we lay our crowns at the feet of Jesus" it was so appropriate for easter sunday..

so what am i doing with my life? i really want to get focused.. i feel like its an ongoing thing.. and not getting anywhere.. maybe i do need to quit my job... i suppose i should put in for a transfer first to somewhere more local and see how that goes over.. and then.. continue to pay off the debts.. really sacrifice stuff.. i should get my bike fixed again and then really budget myself.. take some partime courses and get myself on track.. i feel so yucky these days..