just yesterday i discovered something good about my new job.. well something good that helps to keep me strong.. and so i sat on the floor on the top level near to the indigo.. in this space that is totally not for sitting and i get alot of strange looks from people but i just isolate myself there and escape from the work environment... and i sat there before work yesterday for 20min or so... with a new discovery about my new job...it is only temporary.. (most jobs.. well i guess all jobs are in one way or another temporary) so i guess i should say more short term less than a year kind of job... it is good to find the useful things about jobs.. (does that make sense?) well for example, my new job teaches me speed and service.. it is helping me to be more disciplined.. and to work as a team.. it is humbling to me.. since starting back at the beginning again... (learning things new again) its hard for me to accept those places.. i am mostly used to places of leadership.. so this can be humbling if i allow it to be...

and so i came to this realization that everything i do is preparing me and building me up for greater things, to bring me closer to the Kingdom of Heaven on earth.

"God has delivered your enemy into your hand this day. Let me strike him..." David said to Abishai "Do not destroy him; for who can stretch out his hand against the LORD's anointed, and be guiltless?"..."As the LORD lives, the LORD shall strike him, or his day shall come to die, or he shall go out to battle and perish. The LORD forbid that i should stretch out my hand against the LORD's anoingted..." 1Sam 26:8-11
*I see the above quote as an example of Spirit and Truth. because David had Saul's life in his hands and could have chosen to kill him, he could have thought (in spirit) that this was a sign from God that He was placing Saul's life in his hands to kill him. But David, knowing the Truth, decided to follow the law which states not to kill the LORD's anointed. regardless if the anointed is following the law or now.
*it is kindof like my parents who are not following the law of the Bible. but i still need to obey them unless it goes against my beliefs. *that would be honoring my mother and father according to the ten commandments..(truth)

When i dont feel the Holy Spirit leading me I dont hear an answer from him, it is likely that i know the truth already and should obey.
*perviously i was deciding to quit starbucks job, but then realized that i wasnt "feeling" anything from the spirit and realized the truth would be that the job enables me to pay off the unnecessary, irresponsible debt oweing to the bank..